期待

在学校呆了5小时，没用的5小时。

心情从早上期待的喜悦跌到现在的空洞。我什么都没办到。时间白白的飘过。只有收拾好心情，让下一次的期待能浮现出更好的心情。

I hate it when they say " I am me"

I hate it when people say "I am myself" or "I am who I am". True enough that every individual is different to some extent, but to use the "I am myself" that kind of statement is unjustifiable.

If you're a person who don't eat leftover food, who will throw away all the food without thinking of how lucky you are in comparison to those who starve to death, when confronted with a suggestion from a friend that you can keep those food for lunch the next day, your reply would probably be:"nah, it's so not me!". Now, what is you? What do you mean by being you? Do you think that the habit of not eating leftover food originated from you? Hell no! How can you pick up someone else's habit, a long inherited habit and say that it's yours and call it "me" or "myself"?

When someone is associated with his habits or so called "styles", he would be very reluctant to change, even though the habit could be negative. He would be proud to say that it's HIS style (of numerous habits of others that being put into he himself). He would be so convinced that only he possesses those qualities, and when he is encountered with another person who acted in somehow a similar way that he does, he would ask, with sarcasm: why do you copy my style?, as if he has the copyright of the actions that he adopted from other sources!

Let's continue with the aforesaid example: "it's so not me!" and followed by throwing away the food into the rubbish bin. This is clearly a not very desirable outcome. If you knew that the portion of food is too much for the people, then cook lesser or you could possibly keep them for the following day. Maybe you can say that you have plenty of money and you can buy the food anytime you want, that is true. However, you have failed to visualize that food supply is actually limited that only a certain amount of food can be produced at a single time. Hence, with your wastage of food, the demand for the food increases while the supply stays the same, you, yes, I mean YOU have already deprived the food for people who lived in poverty all over the world. When you waste your food, the food prices might increase to an extent that they can't afford it, because these people are living with less than $1 a day. If one has associated himself with the so-called "my style", with his reluctance to change, he has caused some other people to live in hunger(in this instance).

I would like to clarify that I am not against anyone who uphold a certain good values, which in turns build up a good character and personality. But again, they are not exclusively belong to you, they are some common values that are being upheld by some other people in the world. For that, I believe you can't define as your style either.

For what I believe is that one can freely adopt a values or styles and call himself a practitioner of the style but not calling the style that he practices as HIS style.

拼

拼，是人的本性吗？或是个人的喜好？还是所养成的习惯？

拼，是好还是不好？是优点吗？

我本身本来并不是一个做什么都拼的人。是因为不够拼，有很多很多都能完成的事并没有被完成。转过头来，回想当年如果我够拼的话，我的成就还不止如此。我承认，我害怕受苦。很多时候我选择了容易的出路。有时候，就干脆选择当第二。我让我自己松懈。脑子能装的不装，手中能提的不提。

眼前的康庄大道，我有两个选择：一，轻松行走与众人共欢乐。二，努力不懈，胜人一筹。

拼或不拼？我有一个感觉，叫我不要向周遭低头，努力朝向目标前进。拼，我得拼。我要走的远走得快！

然而，我的目标呢？

when I am too free.

The position of the clouds have never changed since.. err i can't remember how long ago. It remained stagnant there, over the ranges. It has became kind of a routine to go to school and ended up with flight cancellation. Should I be happy for getting day-offs?

I feel very free now. Nothing is bothering me in my mind. I have no particular thing i want to do nor a particular thing that I need to do. Maybe cooking myself a lunch. LOL.

I think i will go out for a bicycle ride. To way further down south or up north! I shall see what would I discover. hahaha.

cheers!

简单的快乐。

我迷上了一个人的时间。躲开所有所有的东西，就只有我自己一个。

昨天我又自个儿塔巴士，一个小时多的车程。我就是喜欢一个人静静地呆望着窗外神速飘走的风景。脑儿也不懂飘到哪儿去了。就算身边的人有多吵闹，心，还是平静的。完全没有约束感。要到哪儿停就哪儿停。

耳机紧塞我耳朵。戴佩妮和孙燕姿不停的在歌唱。简单的快乐。哈哈…………

Good bye Johan!

Johan is going home tomorrow! He is multi-engine and instrument rated now. He has been a good friend and good teacher all these while.

Looking at him now, I saw my future. In around half a year time, I should be like him today, waving to everybody, say good bye to my fellow friends and embark on a journey back home!

We had a small party. Very homely party indeed. It bonds us all together and at the same time, it boosted my morale. I want to go home in pride! I shall do my best!

and what I am going to do now is to sleep and to prepare for tomorrow's flight! good night!

洋

我整个身躯浸在太平洋里。嘴总是咸的。水清澈见底。

秋天才开始不久，冬天就要到临了。咱们一伙儿都十分珍惜这一段还不会很冷的时间，跳进那宽旷的太平洋去嬉戏！

今天，我尝试拥抱海洋。我张开手试着抱那迎面而来的浪花，结果那强力的浪把我给打得十分痛。想了一想，我还是让大海拥抱我！哈哈！

说真的，那浪有时还真的大的可怕！但是我却不想拒绝。浪打在身上那一刻真的十分舒服。飘浮不定的海水还真的可以让我尽情地享受！

心想：我以后的家会有这样奢华的海滩吗？会面对着一望无际的太平洋吗？

夜游

四个人，四辆脚车，十点钟晚上，十分钟的路程。

宁静的夜晚，月亮若隐若现，我们坐在地上，高谈阔论起来。 望着天上闪耀的星星，聊起外太空的世界。外星人、太空船等等等都成了话题。

海浪不断的海滩也让我们勾起了海底世界的话题。海龙王又成了焦点。

谈得有的没有的。思考不断。

就这样两小时不见了。一点，我们回家咯。天气好冷！这一趟夜游还真的蛮不错的。

“乒乒乓乓”，看见一个水瓶飞过击中了我身旁的那辆停泊的车，差那么一点点就飞在我身上了！望去另一边，只见一辆黑色的汽车开着窗，里边作者两个阿飞大声地喊道：“#￥%…&@#%%￥”！我们大吓了一跳。庆幸的是他们也奔驰的走了。我们赶忙息了灯，抄捷径！飞快的逃命啊！！！ 哈哈，还蛮好玩的。

Inner Strength

I cycled to Coles again today. Alone.

And today is a little bit different than some other days. I saw a very motivating moment! Perhaps Buddha wants me to see that!

I was cycling half way through from Coles back home and i arrived at a junction. There are a few cars parked at the road side. Nothing was so different from the usual scene. I was still with my helmet, my earphone and my bag of groceries. Then, I saw a wheelchair beside the driver side door of a car. The door was wide opened. I saw this girl, putting in a lot of effort to disassemble the wheel from the chair. I was wondering if there is anyone by her side... but, there was none when I looked closer in.

Hence, I put my bicycle to a halt and dismounted my bicycle. I walked towards her, wanting to help her, but somehow my instinct told me not to! I walked to her side, i didn't utter a single word, preparing to help if she couldn't make it for some reason. She knew my existence. She continued her effort despite it was hard for her. For less than 3 minutes, with some physical strength, she managed to transfer the chair into the passenger side. She shouted with joy and exhilaration!! The smile on her face was unforgettable! I am so glad that I didn't help. A kind act sometimes just isn't as good as self-accomplishment!

She turned to me with a smile and said thanks. I gave my big smile with a thumb up to her! I was happy from inside! Inspired. Despite being physically impaired, she is independent. Moreover, she is capable of driving! She is really one of a kind! Bravo!

Thanks to her, I have got an inspiration and motivation! She proved to me that everything is possible! What refraining ourselves to something better is basically our fear and anxiety. While she can overcome her obstacles, why can't we?

For this very reason, I promise myself to continue my life journey with enthusiasm and endless effort. I shall lead my life as greatly as yours!!

悠闲的一天

乌云仍然遮盖着大地。这意味着我又不能飞上天了。心情其实并不低落，我还蛮珍惜这么一段我所事事的时间。因为我又有时间去亲近大自然了。身在黄金海岸上，其实也就只有这么区区的一年时间，如果每一天都是天晴都要飞行的话，我会有这一段悠闲时间坐在湖边的凳子上享受强风的按摩、树叶的飘舞、鸟儿的歌唱及湖水漂亮的波动吗？

夏天过去了，秋天的风带有一丝丝的冷意。酷热的天已不复在。一路上，我迎风而行的脚踏车几乎都寸步难行。风形成了一股好大的力量阻挡着我的去向。但，我享受。强大的风虽然让我的脚步慢了下来，却让我看到了更多的东西。海边的风景、冲浪的年轻人、孩子们的嘻哈叫声、一对对老人在海边上拍拖的恩爱一幕又一幕的出现在眼前。我更享受的是独自一个人的清静时间。

突然觉得好冷。我仍然一个人坐在凳子上。让奔跑的脑袋带着手中握着的笔游走。

我开始憧憬。憧憬着未来、憧憬着十年后的我。毕业后，我还会回来这里吗？我还会像现在这样自己一个人骑着脚踏车没有去想的出游吗？到时候的我会是在忙着些什么？我脑里大概有了个答案。我总是充满着计划，心里有好多好多的事情有待完成、时间总是不够。理想的情景与现实总有一段距离。但我还是喜欢憧憬。那么一小段的憧憬总能让我低靡的朝气给蓬勃起来。

大树摇晃个不停，风越刮越大。我骑上脚踏车，乘着尾随的风，似箭般的往家里奔去。