今天的海没平时的静，浪涛汹涌。厚厚的云层覆盖了整片蓝色的天。灰。

我又再自个儿漫步在沙滩上。没有夕阳。眼前朦胧一片，海浪声不断。

就只有两个多月。多两个多月我即将回到大马。这里的一切情景会在我脑里逗留多久？届时我会很不舍吗？至少在这里的烦恼比回到去的少。空闲的时间相信也较回去得多。

再多一个月，我的感触应该会更多吧…… 首个出国的经验。再次回家又会有什么感觉呢？

阔别已久的阴天又再现。 乌云密布，风轻轻吹。冷。

我正无所事事，呆在凉亭吹风、看天、发呆。眼前的几位工友忙着为隔壁家做维修工作。陆陆续续传出一些吵杂声。然而我的心情丝毫都没被影响。好懒散的一天。

飞机起飞降落也不时传出恐龙吼叫般的声音。望上去，飞机慢慢地消失在云霄中。那就是所谓的冲上云霄吧！

I forgot when, i start to type without thinking of where the buttons are located.

I forgot when, I ride a bicycle without needing to think that i would fall.

I forgot when, I type sms without looking at the phone.

I forgot when, I play piano on both hands with ease.

But, they are all started with hardships and countless falls. Determination and dedication plays a great part of it. Looking forward for the next milestone in my life.

不开心？难免的。很多时候，心情不由得人选择。周遭的事情及因素，称心的、得意的自然让人心旷神怡，违意的还用多说？

然而，很多事情都在掌控之外。没有人的错，只是时间不对称。天时、地利及人和都得互相配合。

还是旧的那一句，放手。与其懊恼不称心的过去，不如积极面对将发生的未来！

外面天空紫红色一片，美。

bicycle, the way for groceries shopping.

Choice of transport to go for groceries:

1. Bus
2. Bicycle
3. Walk

Choice number 2 will always be my first option. Feel that it is kind of heavy carrying stuffs in the back pack? feel that it is tiring to travel 6 km on a bicycle to go to the shopping mall? feel embarrassed to use bicycle as transport to go for groceries and carrying those groceries back home on a bike?

Probably a bit of everything but it is to be justified by the following:

• it is environmentally friendly.
• it is a good physical exercise.
• it is, sometimes, faster than waiting for the bus.
• it grants more freedom.
• it allows me to stop and enjoy the scenery en-route.
• it saves my $3.00 for the bus.
• and it is a joy to cycle along the beach just to go for the groceries!

So, why not cycle? I enjoy doing it and i will continue to do so... Join me?

Sunday, cold, clear and windy.

I am feeling very tired and a slight headache after a long family outing with all my house mates.

It was a very nice outing. I enjoyed myself at least. We went to the park in Southport. The broadwater is just magnificent that I like it every single time i go there. We sat down on the grass just to look at the ripple of the water, the seagulls and also the clouds.

Then we saw a lot of very futuristic poles with a lot of LEDs in it. They are activated by movements of people passing by. The lights dance. I got very excited seeing those things and i was running like little kid just to see the lights dance. LOL. There weren't many people around though. I then persuaded them to stay for another half an hour just to see those lights after the sunset. The result was quite encouraging. The lights are much nicer and clearly compared to the afternoon.

What a coincident that we were actually bumped into Rijal's mum and relatives who are on holiday during our dinner in Surfer's. Rijal wasn't there and we haven't met his mum before. Magically we get to know them there.

I bought a bottle of CKin2u. I really like the smell.

and, Happy birthday Bashir and Lekky! I doubt both of them would ever read this.

咖啡

常常经过咖啡厅我都会有一股喝咖啡的冲动。我是咖啡爱好者。悲的是，很多时候我都强迫自己将那一口口水吞进肚子里。闭上眼睛、塞着鼻子抵挡那咖啡强势的攻击！1杯4块钱的咖啡也还真的蛮贵的。就大概12令吉…… 沮丧，真的。靠着1个月300澳币过活还真的蛮考技巧及耐力！庆幸的是，我每天都有一些健康的食物，有肉、鱼、菜、蛋等等。只是得在购买的时候下点心思。

我向往的不多，只是希望之后的我可以很随意的买我爱的咖啡，不须在餐厅点菜的时候为价钱而三思, 有多余的钱捐助他人…… 足矣。

蒲公英

蒲公英飘浮在空中，没有定律。很可能，连他自己也不懂他的去向。靠的也只有他对风的信念。生命不再掌控之内，能做的可能就是向天祈祷……

我想，我们在生命之路犹如一颗蒲公英。靠的是风--我们身边的人与物。幸运的，会遇到伯乐，会发黄腾达。不幸的，遇到小人，遭人拐骗。种种际遇树造各种人格。所幸的，我们人类就算遇到小人还是能生存下来。而蒲公英呢？到了不该到的地方，给人类扫进了垃圾抖，永远见不到天日。

p/s: 今天的海洋特别的宁静。海浪声不复在。海里没有很大的起伏。喜欢宁静的我爱极了那一翻画面。一股幸福的感觉涌上了心头……

Balloon

When things aren't as efficient as we think it can be, perhaps it's time for re-evaluation. Evaluate our effort, evaluate our attitude and evaluate the "changeable"s.

Men are like balloons. How big the balloon becomes depends on how much air you blow into it. And to achieve the optimum size, the balloon can't be stretched too much nor should it be left loose with insufficient air.

I think I can put more air in myself.

梦

多年前，我心里存着两个梦想。一，出国留学。 二，驾驶飞机。

基于种种因素，当时，这两个梦想也只是个梦想。我一直以为那些都是我能力所及之外。

正当我以为一切将定下来之际，这么一个机会找上门来。我可以出国去学驾驶飞机！这是二合一的配套！然而，这么一个机会并不是一盏省油的灯。我需要很大的付出以及牺牲。心里挣扎了许久亦无法做出决定。

冥冥之中似乎有了安排。不管理智怎么不让我来，我究竟还是来了。做人，有时就是靠着一股冲动。 我靠着他，冲动了这里也呆了8个月。现在所期待的就是学成回去…… 多5个月！！希望是。