咖啡

常常经过咖啡厅我都会有一股喝咖啡的冲动。我是咖啡爱好者。悲的是，很多时候我都强迫自己将那一口口水吞进肚子里。闭上眼睛、塞着鼻子抵挡那咖啡强势的攻击！1杯4块钱的咖啡也还真的蛮贵的。就大概12令吉…… 沮丧，真的。靠着1个月300澳币过活还真的蛮考技巧及耐力！庆幸的是，我每天都有一些健康的食物，有肉、鱼、菜、蛋等等。只是得在购买的时候下点心思。

我向往的不多，只是希望之后的我可以很随意的买我爱的咖啡，不须在餐厅点菜的时候为价钱而三思, 有多余的钱捐助他人…… 足矣。

蒲公英

蒲公英飘浮在空中，没有定律。很可能，连他自己也不懂他的去向。靠的也只有他对风的信念。生命不再掌控之内，能做的可能就是向天祈祷……

我想，我们在生命之路犹如一颗蒲公英。靠的是风--我们身边的人与物。幸运的，会遇到伯乐，会发黄腾达。不幸的，遇到小人，遭人拐骗。种种际遇树造各种人格。所幸的，我们人类就算遇到小人还是能生存下来。而蒲公英呢？到了不该到的地方，给人类扫进了垃圾抖，永远见不到天日。

p/s: 今天的海洋特别的宁静。海浪声不复在。海里没有很大的起伏。喜欢宁静的我爱极了那一翻画面。一股幸福的感觉涌上了心头……

Balloon

When things aren't as efficient as we think it can be, perhaps it's time for re-evaluation. Evaluate our effort, evaluate our attitude and evaluate the "changeable"s.

Men are like balloons. How big the balloon becomes depends on how much air you blow into it. And to achieve the optimum size, the balloon can't be stretched too much nor should it be left loose with insufficient air.

I think I can put more air in myself.

梦

多年前，我心里存着两个梦想。一，出国留学。 二，驾驶飞机。

基于种种因素，当时，这两个梦想也只是个梦想。我一直以为那些都是我能力所及之外。

正当我以为一切将定下来之际，这么一个机会找上门来。我可以出国去学驾驶飞机！这是二合一的配套！然而，这么一个机会并不是一盏省油的灯。我需要很大的付出以及牺牲。心里挣扎了许久亦无法做出决定。

冥冥之中似乎有了安排。不管理智怎么不让我来，我究竟还是来了。做人，有时就是靠着一股冲动。 我靠着他，冲动了这里也呆了8个月。现在所期待的就是学成回去…… 多5个月！！希望是。

担心

担心, 人生中总是充满着担心这两个字. 我担心这样, 担心那样. 人之常情吧?

其实, 人能做的真的是有限的. 很多事情, 到了某种程度, 我们已经是竭尽所能, 剩余的也只能够听天由命.

往往, 担心就是从那儿源起. 停顿了的双手使到脑袋空洞产生了心中感到的不踏实. 这种忐忑, 相信大家都尝试过. 最明显的也不过于期待着考试成绩的那一刹那. 再来就是上过山车前的那种心情. 又或者是上台演讲前的感受?

担心, 真的有用吗?

因为担心表现不好所以紧张. 因为担心得不偿失所以没胆去做. 因为担心外面有扒手所以不敢逛街. 因为担心出车祸所以不敢驾车. 因为担心钱币有菌所以不敢触碰. 因为担心厕所有鬼所以憋尿. 因为担心....所以....

太多太多的担心使到我们怯步. 当然也让我们有了虚假的安全感因为在我们为某件事担心时,感觉上我们似乎做了一些东西, 心里也好过一些. 但, 这一些担心全都是多余的. 当我们在担心时, 负面的心情会变得更负面. 要记得, 我们可以善用这些用来担心的时间. 我们可以享乐, 可以修边, 可以放松从而建造快乐与高兴.

通常, 担心都是虚有的. 我们做人只要做好本分剩余的都不用管了, 也管不了. 船到桥头自然直, 我相信这句话.

不违言, 我也是"担心一族". 然而, 我学着释放那心里的不安, 放开我管不了的.

因为我知道: 担心, 是多余的.

期待

在学校呆了5小时，没用的5小时。

心情从早上期待的喜悦跌到现在的空洞。我什么都没办到。时间白白的飘过。只有收拾好心情，让下一次的期待能浮现出更好的心情。

I hate it when they say " I am me"

I hate it when people say "I am myself" or "I am who I am". True enough that every individual is different to some extent, but to use the "I am myself" that kind of statement is unjustifiable.

If you're a person who don't eat leftover food, who will throw away all the food without thinking of how lucky you are in comparison to those who starve to death, when confronted with a suggestion from a friend that you can keep those food for lunch the next day, your reply would probably be:"nah, it's so not me!". Now, what is you? What do you mean by being you? Do you think that the habit of not eating leftover food originated from you? Hell no! How can you pick up someone else's habit, a long inherited habit and say that it's yours and call it "me" or "myself"?

When someone is associated with his habits or so called "styles", he would be very reluctant to change, even though the habit could be negative. He would be proud to say that it's HIS style (of numerous habits of others that being put into he himself). He would be so convinced that only he possesses those qualities, and when he is encountered with another person who acted in somehow a similar way that he does, he would ask, with sarcasm: why do you copy my style?, as if he has the copyright of the actions that he adopted from other sources!

Let's continue with the aforesaid example: "it's so not me!" and followed by throwing away the food into the rubbish bin. This is clearly a not very desirable outcome. If you knew that the portion of food is too much for the people, then cook lesser or you could possibly keep them for the following day. Maybe you can say that you have plenty of money and you can buy the food anytime you want, that is true. However, you have failed to visualize that food supply is actually limited that only a certain amount of food can be produced at a single time. Hence, with your wastage of food, the demand for the food increases while the supply stays the same, you, yes, I mean YOU have already deprived the food for people who lived in poverty all over the world. When you waste your food, the food prices might increase to an extent that they can't afford it, because these people are living with less than $1 a day. If one has associated himself with the so-called "my style", with his reluctance to change, he has caused some other people to live in hunger(in this instance).

I would like to clarify that I am not against anyone who uphold a certain good values, which in turns build up a good character and personality. But again, they are not exclusively belong to you, they are some common values that are being upheld by some other people in the world. For that, I believe you can't define as your style either.

For what I believe is that one can freely adopt a values or styles and call himself a practitioner of the style but not calling the style that he practices as HIS style.

拼

拼，是人的本性吗？或是个人的喜好？还是所养成的习惯？

拼，是好还是不好？是优点吗？

我本身本来并不是一个做什么都拼的人。是因为不够拼，有很多很多都能完成的事并没有被完成。转过头来，回想当年如果我够拼的话，我的成就还不止如此。我承认，我害怕受苦。很多时候我选择了容易的出路。有时候，就干脆选择当第二。我让我自己松懈。脑子能装的不装，手中能提的不提。

眼前的康庄大道，我有两个选择：一，轻松行走与众人共欢乐。二，努力不懈，胜人一筹。

拼或不拼？我有一个感觉，叫我不要向周遭低头，努力朝向目标前进。拼，我得拼。我要走的远走得快！

然而，我的目标呢？

when I am too free.

The position of the clouds have never changed since.. err i can't remember how long ago. It remained stagnant there, over the ranges. It has became kind of a routine to go to school and ended up with flight cancellation. Should I be happy for getting day-offs?

I feel very free now. Nothing is bothering me in my mind. I have no particular thing i want to do nor a particular thing that I need to do. Maybe cooking myself a lunch. LOL.

I think i will go out for a bicycle ride. To way further down south or up north! I shall see what would I discover. hahaha.

cheers!

简单的快乐。

我迷上了一个人的时间。躲开所有所有的东西，就只有我自己一个。

昨天我又自个儿塔巴士，一个小时多的车程。我就是喜欢一个人静静地呆望着窗外神速飘走的风景。脑儿也不懂飘到哪儿去了。就算身边的人有多吵闹，心，还是平静的。完全没有约束感。要到哪儿停就哪儿停。

耳机紧塞我耳朵。戴佩妮和孙燕姿不停的在歌唱。简单的快乐。哈哈…………